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I’ve changed my mind. I’m just going to talk about random people on my tumblr instead of my loved ones. I am so indecisive. Excuse my indecisiveness. I apologize, but today I actually do have something I’d like to talk about. You can read if you’d like, but if it gets too long you don’t have to, but PUH-LEASE do nooot get all cranky if I say something that rubs you the wrong way. I promise I don’t mean it, and it isn’t meant to rub you the wrong way. The right way? Quite possibly. Don’t get too turned on though.
SO, In case you don’t actually know me, I’ve graduated high school. Quite recently, actually. I became a high school graduate (an alumni of Olmsted Falls, if you will) seventeen days ago. I will be attending THE Ohio State University (On a funny side note, I am very concerned that people remember the “the,” and on one occasion I was discussing my place of higher education with my father, and he said that instead of calling it OSU it should be called TOSU. I thought this was quite humorous, and I may never forget it. I do believe it was during Jeopardy! in case you were curious.) OSU is about two to two and a half hours away. Trust me, I learned this little piece of information the hard way while I spent my senior year alone due to my boyfriend being there, but that truly isn’t the point. I’m leaving my friends. Steph and Sam are staying in the Cleveland area, which means that they’ll be 2 to 2 1/2 hours away, and Courtney’s going to Bowling Green State University, so she’ll be about 2 hours and 11 minutes (I may have just used google maps) away. To be honest, we barely put enough time into our friendships now. What are we gonna do when we have classes, papers, and exams. Then later when we have careers, spouses, and then KIDS?! How will I see these three girls that I hold near and dear to my heart. I worry. (I mean, I always worry, but this time it’s actually going somewhere if you’d just be PATIENT!) I worry that these girls that I’d put my life on the line for won’t be there for me much longer. I worry that Courtney won’t be my maid of honor. I worry that I won’t be taking trips to Colorado to visit Stephanie and her family. I worry that I’ll feel awkward calling Sam to see how she’s been and how her family is. I love these girls so much, and I am so afraid that the day they or I leave for college will be the last time I ever see them. It scares me to death because I love them dearly, but you never know what distance does until distance is there. Don’t tell me that if I truly love them, I’ll find ways to make it work. It doesn’t always work like that. We are going to be four independent girls with four independent schedules. Don’t say this is all bullshit because you don’t know what it’s like. This will probably be more difficult to sustain than my long distance relationship because the four of us won’t always be able to talk. The fear kills me.
